Hurts

Laugh like nothing happened, Smile like everything is fine,

 I love him so much.

   But do I have to go through this feeling every day?

   Is this a normal feeling, a normal relationship?

   I don't understand anymore, can this be considered painful?

   What should I do, I think it hurts, but he doesn't think so.  

This is what he usually does.

   In the 2nd year I started to feel great fear, I was afraid of hope, I was afraid to expect more from people.

   I believe God has arranged everything, but why do I keep feeling this way, like something else, it bothers me so much.

   It hurts isn't it?

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