🍁 Last Autumn, Little Butterfly 🦋

In a quiet city, There is a woman kept breathing— though her steps were wrapped in hesitation. Not because she couldn’t leave, but because fear had learned how to stay. Time circled her gently yet endlessly, days repeating— dreams waiting— life moving—without truly moving. At night, she would ask the dark, “Is this all I am meant to be?” She longed to go. To open the world with her own hands. But fear spoke softly— of failure, of loneliness, of what might happen if she tried. And still, what makes she hurt most was remaining where she could no longer grow . One day, a quiet truth found her : not the world was holding her back. But it was her fear a sking to be seen— So one morning, with courage still trembling— she chose to step forward. She left what had once felt familiar and carried with her dreams she had hidden even from herself. The beginning was always not easy. Yet each breath felt lighter— as if her soul finally yeahh I had room. In that new space, she met herself again. Slowl...

Quietly walking towards the end of my long search, at first I felt unsure, I felt doubtful, I was sure that as usual there are always people who stop by and then leave. ya its normal thing in this life something come and go. in previous years I always repeated the same thing, I close the story with things I haven't achieved and I always start again at the beginning of my year with new dreams, but my goal this time I close the page of my book by starting a new chapter, and never thought of looking for love, to getting know someone or even planning a future with a man, what I know in this life after harboring disappointment, I always stand firmly on my own feet and don't expect or even ask for help anything from someone.  My goal in that city is to work and start my life from zero again. Im come here to focus and heal for all i already through in my place before. ya its called big escape in my life. I come here I never thought my journey would be the beginning of my meeting with ...

In the process of forgetting and healing your pain, you often forget to reflect and give yourself attention.  Such as :  You must start learning to grow from your wounds, think logically, and start building healthy relationships in the future without involving your feelings in the past, because if you continue to involve them, they will form a poison over time.  Be grateful for your current situation. Pain brings life lessons and gives you gratitude because it makes you strong for getting through it well. But don't forget to give yourself time to heal by not dwelling on sadness . Believe that sadness fades with time . Continue to focus on the positive aspects of your life and focus on the present. Then, after going through a part of healing processes, even if it doesn't recover quickly, occasionally celebrate your progress, step by step you will begin to forget. Remember the key is patience because 'healing is a gradual process, it can’t be instantaneous.'  You sho...

  “ Why Don't I Write After Happiness? ” Ya, I'm curious about that. But I've come to understand myself about this. Maybe I used to write because of pain. Because of anxiety, silence, and a chest too tight to contain my feelings. Words became an escape, a prayer, my outlet. But now, as my heart begins to calm down and the world is no longer as sharp as it once was, this pen seems to have lost its way. Because there are no more tears to shed, no more wounds pressing for healing. I want to keep writing without periods at the end of words, but after happiness comes in my version, it's not that easy. 🌿 Maybe Because, Sadness is a fast-burning fuel. When life is still dark, writing becomes light. When light comes, we forget what darkness feels like. And we stop lighting the candle of words. Happiness keeps us busy living life. We start enjoying the day, chatting, laughing, and loving. There's no time to sit alone and stir up words. There's no longer the quiet space...

I have written countless poems and stories about you in books, heart and my mind. However, I am still afraid to love, I am still not ready, I am still shackled by doubts and fears that haunt my mind. The world I live in now is so dark and quiet, but after meeting you in this strange place, everything turned colorful. For weeks, every night I wondered, is this a sign that I should start over what I buried 6 years ago? You have been asking this all this time, haven't you? I also don't know why it took me so long. However, I am not someone who falls in love easily, but your sleepy warm eyes always make me drift away in them. I always remember the first time we met in the middle of the darkness and the crowd, your eyes and mine met then we were stuck for a long time, your eyes and the little smile you gave left a deep impression on my heart.  You make a move first, and I feel butterflies flying around me, I can't get rid of those beautiful butterflies from my sight. Everything ...

  When I love, I can’t do it half-heartedly. I can’t pretend to love just to satisfy a temporary need. I will loving with all my heart and soul, with every beat of my heart and every breath I take. Bcs my love is not a game nor an experiment. My love is a burning fire, a raging storm, a deep and vast ocean. I can’t help but love with all my heart, because that is my true nature. And  In life that is already complicated enough, I choose not to complicate it with unnecessary love games. I believe that when two hearts truly want to be together, they will find their own way without the need for complicated strategies or games or even manipulation strategies~  I just don't want to be a puzzle, to be solved or a prize to be pursued with great difficulty. I want a relationship built on honesty, trust, and mutual understanding. When I love, I want to do it sincerely and selflessly, without the need to play a role or hide my feelings. In a world full of falsehood, I feel like a sa...

Still about that man, the same man who barged into my fragile life. Tap  ⇣ 1. Beautiful Encounter 2. Dive into his soul At first I think maybe this era time for me to practice being more independence, maybe this time for me to feel bored and loneliness, maybe this time what I need to put a pieces back together. Perhaps this moment is a canvas waiting to be painted with the vibrant colors of solitude, a symphony of silence that whispers secrets of self-discovery. Maybe this time is for me to dance with the shadows, to learn the steps of independence, and to find the rhythm of my own heartbeat. As I wonder through the labyrinth of my mind, I realize that loneliness isn’t a curse, but a catalyst for growth. It's a chance to reconnect with the fragments of my soul, to mend the rips in the fabric of my being, and to weave a new tapestry of resilience. In this quiet, I find the pieces of myself scattered like puzzle fragments on the floor of my mind. I gather them gently, one by one, and...