Sometimes some of the processes in my growth are so confusing that I don't even realize that I'm in a change and I'm in a developing phase. Often I don't realize that feeling at all because some of my journeys are very unpleasant and don't meet expectations, but the most unpleasant thing is that we don't know what will happen in the future. Over time, There something inside us seems to be waiting, holding our breath, not sure what step to take next, finally it becomes the process we have been waiting for. Because it is in the process of development that we realize that we are ready for the next phase in our lives. However, most likely in the process, a new level of personality will emerge and I will have to accept the change without compromise first. Like it or not, ready or not, I have to face a new version of myself that develops and grows in my process of becoming an adult. Will I be able to choose what kind of person I want to be at a certain time, of course I can always choose, because what happens in the future is the result of what I planted in the past. So I will continue to struggle to do my best and solve the mystery of the life that I am supposed to live.
These few days I don't cry much, we don't even cryyyyyyyy, finally! :’ (mean me and mom) Because I have the antidote, I have the medicine for all mypain, he changes my day he turns my cold heart into a little warmer. I don't know how he came into my life? I certainly thank to God, for providing the antidote Soooo on time! ;) Even though I was tough at first and didn't want to recognize him but who would have thought that now he has become a part of my day I'm so grateful to have someone who keeps me safe and can heal my wound even just a little... But, I wouldn't expect more from him, because I already know how it feels when having hope on someone and it will hurt's ... I'll let it flow as it is and I am very happy & bliss when he accepting me for who I am The only thing I'm grateful for now is having him by my side I hope I'm not depedent to having him around me Bcsa, I'm so afraid of being addicted to him ( around me ).
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