Some days I still cry and write about the severity of losing him And for most of those days my stomach felt sick because it seemed like he had moved on and I'm still standing there, trapped between shackles. And on days I feel I'm stuck reminding myself that I'm human and thinking and feeling sad is a very normal thing, right?
He s now gone and you still have pieces of the gift from those you loved, even though its impossible to forget things like this Instead of ignoring it, I told myself to feel it the pain and dealing with it and often writing about him sometimes it helps because I feel like I'm not going so crazy.
Ya, sometimes I feel like I'm a very ironic girl in the world, but hey dude, this world isn't only about you. So many people are hurting, so make it easier, and find new wounds.
But being ironic is a normal thing, right? although sometimes on certain days I need a minute or ten to remind myself that I am human and as humans we feel it is okay to be sad and that is how it feels to be hurt, just enjoy it and because mentally we will always mourn some loss in life but what's important is not to get caught in an infinite loop hole. not getting out of trouble and remaining in the darkness itself.
Rise up like him who quickly forgot you. and from what you should be experiencing, enough is enough to grieve here now. And while this is a very beautiful day, in your chaos and trouble you will always be beautiful. enough that he has moved on with his life and you are still trapped in a vacuum, everything will pass, enjoy your time while celebrating the faint shadow that is disappearing quickly.
These few days I don't cry much, we don't even cryyyyyyyy, finally! :’ (mean me and mom) Because I have the antidote, I have the medicine for all mypain, he changes my day he turns my cold heart into a little warmer. I don't know how he came into my life? I certainly thank to God, for providing the antidote Soooo on time! ;) Even though I was tough at first and didn't want to recognize him but who would have thought that now he has become a part of my day I'm so grateful to have someone who keeps me safe and can heal my wound even just a little... But, I wouldn't expect more from him, because I already know how it feels when having hope on someone and it will hurt's ... I'll let it flow as it is and I am very happy & bliss when he accepting me for who I am The only thing I'm grateful for now is having him by my side I hope I'm not depedent to having him around me Bcsa, I'm so afraid of being addicted to him ( around me ).
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