Be Realistic, let him go.

   And the fact is when he says he doesn't want to be in a relationship or start a commitment, for sure it's just an excuse, because actually he already has a heart that he wants. Well girl! Now you must be realistic, you don't need to force yourself to be wise and attempt to understand his situation and fears as he said. Wake up pretty girl, don’t be stupid anymore, he has given many signs that he has guarding another heart, realize that he doesn't want you anymore, what he wants is another woman. Not you. But the woman who is on his phone who doesn't need to give him a message first, the woman who doesn't ask about whether or not she is worthy of being loved, the woman who is not willing to wait because she was never allowed to wait, after thinking about it again it turns out he has given many signs but all you do is close your eyes and deny not believing because you feel he loves you very much. but in reality he never did. he is just a softest man who acts as if he loves you when in fact he doesn't. and you are really fooled by his calm, yes he is good in pretending to love; 

I know this fact is so painful, but... 

You have to know that if he doesn't reply to your message it means he chooses not to. He is inconsistent with you because you are not a priority for him. He is never really busy; but he chooses to be too busy for you. He is not really mysterious; he just doesn’t want to talk to you. He doesn’t do it casually; he just doesn’t want to commit to you. And it doesn’t mean he doesn’t want a relationship; he just not into you. If he comes back later remember, He doesn’t come back because he misses you or loves you; but because he knows he has access to you. And now wake up pretty girl. go back to being a crazy woman who enjoys life in the comfort without having to compete with the recovery time to get better, just go back to where you were before you met him, everything is fine right? go back to being a cold but not frost woman, go back to being your beautiful era because you deserve happiness, go back being butterfly like before who love freedom in your life, even sometime you feel lonely, just do it. go back to being crazy but within the limits that have been determined as usual. Trust me after you get signs from him and from the people around him, you will be more sure and sincere to let him go. 

As the saying goes; You have let go of the umbrella, but it doesn’t mean the rain has stopped. What it means; Feelings of love and pain can't stop that quickly, but this time let yourself enjoy the rush of water in every drop, until finally the rain stops by itself. What I mean; Feelings of love and pain will stop by themselves because time heals. 

  And now I finally realize that letting go of the umbrella when it rains isn't that bad. When I am sincere and become more logical. My chest isn’t tight as yesterday, believe that everything will get better as it should. If you are sincere. Really sincere. 

When you miss him, remember what he said before letting you go; 

He quoted it from a song and said that; he is just a nightmare for you, he has stabbed a sharp thorn in you, he said it was not his wish and not his intention, he also felt hurt because he also forgot and pushed you aside, and said forgive me and forget me, if that makes you shine again like before. Again you almost fooled again by his calmness and softness. 

  Until finally I reached a point where I could no longer distinguish between sincere and not, love and not. because what I know, if you love someone, you don't need to be complicated fighting with your mind, especially with things that haven't happened yet. if you love him/her you will definitely be sure of your love and will never see the person you love sad or even make him/her leave you. 

From this story I think everything that happened really doesn't make sense, why should such a simple love be made so complicated, in essence love is that very simple things, there is no need to make the person you love and loves you beg or asking for love from you. What I believe is when you are in a relationship and you still have question his/her love or you beg for his/her love, it means that its a clue for you to immediately realize that it, isn’t the right love for you, you have to be prepared for all possibilities even though the painful consequence is separation and you have to be able to firmly and be ready to let go of your umbrella even though the rain is pouring down. Because letting go sincerely is better than holding on to a rope that continues to make you sick and hurt more.