Lost In Daydreams

 

After I finished work and I was alone in silence on the terrace of my room with a cup of coffee that I was enjoying until it was finished, for some reason every time I was lost in daydreams it always made me realize that the world couldn't give me what I wanted. Somentimes I shed tears when complaining about life being unfair to me.

Is it okay for me to act like this ? I know it's not good, but sometimes I think the way the world works doesn't always work well for me/. I'm tired of my pain, my way of looking for a way out of problems that always come to me, always only I can find a way out. Every problem I face feels heavy and sometimes I don't find a solution to the problem I face. But sometimes not finding a solution is a solution, those words make me confused. Sometimes it feels like I want to lean on someone but around me there is no one I can rely on other than myself. I'm tired, I'm tired, I want to give up, but considering I've come this far, I don't want to give up. Sorry if I spilled my heart a lot. I'm just tired of life not going according to my plans. Even though I know I can only make a plan, But God is the one who determines everything.