Sometimes I miss being the first person you look for in the morning. and become your spirit when you starting the day. be the reason for your happiness every day. I always smile when I think back on those days. waiting for text messages from you all the time, waiting to hear from each other. hold back the desire to meet at night.How beautiful isn’t our day?will I feel the same story when someone is not you?In fact, now everything has changed, now someone who fills my day isn’t what I want. at that time our time was so short that I felt a lack of time we had spent together. I don’t know, sometimes a little time can change a lot of things, but a long time doesn’t even change a bit. Now my time is up just to remember you.
When someone breathe so heavily, How do I know what that means. but no matter how heavy the burden. I will hug you tightly! Don’t feel lonely, this earth still crowded how can you feel lonely. But I think the loneliest people are the friendliest The saddest person has the most charming smile, bcs they don't want other people to feel the pain.
So Please don’t worry don’t be sad don’t be heavily, you have me, you still have me, now & forever.
Sometimes I wish I could disappear from the world, one question. Have you ever want to die ? the world looks so dark and I always cry every night making my pillow full of tears. about disappear, then is it the best way if I disappear? I am very afraid of fake people around me, sometimes I really hate myself if I look at them in the mirror, what should I do? My feelings don't get better quickly, I need the antidote, time is the medicine. because as time goes by I feel much better and don't suffer anymore. but I'm afraid if someone comes to ruin my happiness again, because pain and bitter memories, will never disappear in someone's memory.
The wind made this lonely night feel colder, old memories that were lost now came back to fill my mind, the memories appeared where we were feeling in love and laughing together.
The lonely night make you come to my mind till I can’t handle my feeling bcs I miss you a lot.
I know we can't possibly be together, but I will always keep those memories in a part of my beautiful memory.
when I close my eyes I see you so clearly your image makes I miss you.
But How can this feeling suddenly come, who’s can responsibillity ? I still miss you here & you are not.
I’ve been a friend of your dark night light, when you said you loved me very much and I was lulled by your words…
Until one day you turned my sweet dreams into my nightmares, suddenly happiness turned into sadness and anger at one time.
That night you’ll took me for a walk for fresh air, I waited for you in my anxiety, I was silent in front of the mirror for hours getting ready to met my lover. But it turns out at that time you had the same promise with other girl, then finally I know that I'm not the only one, I'm just one of them;
I'm always looking for small happiness from someone who has big happiness, am I wrong to take this path ?
I need energy to survive this far: the irony is that many people closest to me don't care, but I understand they are also only busy looking for their own happiness too.
I continue this relationship as if we were a happy couple, first you asked me to fly until in the middle of the trip you broke my wings on one side, until then I still believed in you and kept it, see how stupid I was when I loved someone.
How can they say “what can you do? you can't do anything! "
Although in the context of a joke, is it appropriate to be a joke? even though they don't know what I've done until now, is appropriate ?
They don't see my efforts, they don't see my struggles, They know nothing. Then casually they say it's just a joke.
That someone could be your lover, best friend or even your core family, pain is definitely painful, this is what I'm feeling rn, my heart is broken apart, maybe for them it's a trivial thing but for me it's very sensitive so very painful, especially when you think you can't do anything, just because you are the smallest among the others.
because the marriages around me are not like in happy ending movies, on the contrary, the marriages around me look scary…
Like some are beaten to the punch but they choose to endure bcs they are bound by something, some are truly betrayed many times, they choose to stay bound bcs blood ties, some are unhappy in their marriage bcs of household rules that are often interfered with by other people and finally choose to stay for some reason.
What’s wrong with married lyfe ? why so scary?
After marriage there is no choice?
especially us women, why don't we have a choice and can't do what we want and what we usually do?
while men are free to do it, what is the true meaning of marriage?
Why this world always opposite. just like we always argue about small things that shouldn't be necessary.
Why do we experience with beautiful things but end up in pain? are all relationships like this?
How can a relationship always end in regret?
Can anyone explain? is there a relationship without regrets?
Is it just my concern? Is it my concern because I saw my friends getting married?
My worries increased even though I was not at all in the phase of wanting to get married. I don't know, everything will pass quickly.
We look at the same sky,
breathe the same air,
stand on the same earth,
then why can't we be together ?
Bad things kept getting out of hand and things weren't going well and kept happening to us, which we finally decided to end our relationship:
to be honest I was the one who asked him to leave, bcs bad things always happen when we are together.
They say i was cursed by my ex's, then I finally believed it a bit, and maybe the ex's curse is real. and it happened in my current relationship, bcs it didn't work well.
Then I CHOOSE TO leave. maybe that was just my excuse for leaving but i made it seem like it was an ex's curse.
How can there be a human who likes to make his heart flutter, in a new way. Ya thats me.
every day my curiosity is getting higher, I like awkward situations, I like the atmosphere when it gets cold and uncomfortable, I like the intimate atmosphere, it really makes my heart beat fast. I like introductions, I like flirt talk, I like intimidating stares, thrilling stuff, I love it so much.
It's been too long I lost myself, And now I'm starting to show again who I am with the form of the character woman I
want.
now when I started my part the world has responded to me in a good way. show things in a different way. in myself that I have built like now, I have gradually improved and recovered.
I am improving And growing into a new things. my journey to find something real was not easy.
but now my worries are gone & I have accepted the new me. it turns out that making a new character is not a bad thing.
As long as this makes you comfortable then live it.
Have you ever felt empty in a crowd? suddenly everything became blurry, gradually became gray and then everything became very dark And my ears couldn't hear anything. Everything felt destroyed instantly And my chest felt very tight, at that time in my mind, did I die?
Now he is silent again, silencing the voice of his heart which can never be predicted and understood by my common sense, my logic is loo...
