Another new chapter~

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That night the rain fell very hard and stern until made a loud rumbling sound outside my window, this atmosphere always makes me drift into it, and it feels like a sad feeling comes. is the night identical to support in the atmosphere to think about everything that hasn’t really been achieved well? many people will feel afraid when the sky gets dark, many also think that its time to rest their minds for a moment, but not with me, the night comes making the thoughts around me louder and more burdensome, I let the sound of my room bell decoration that keeps ringing when I feel peaceful when the wind moves it, but this time I feel disturbed because my mind is noisy, I think about things that I have to decide immediately. 

 


 

The end of this year I close with a dream that again hasn’t achieved my goal, and the beginning of the year I open with a new page and enthusiasm to rebuild the dream. but that question often comes out at times like tonight. will this time be the most beautiful part of me? will I achieve it this year? I really throw away bad thoughts, put aside what makes me feel weak. This decision has been a long time coming, my head keeps giving me signals that I shouldn't do the same shit this year, I have to get up and step foot in a new place and do crazy things that I want to do again, it feels like the passion is dead and long gone. I feel like I need something to refresh myself that has been drowning in solitude for a long time which honestly I also enjoy these moments. but again I give a lot of signals to get out of my comfort zone. after thinking about this for a long time, I decided to go and start my life in a foreign place where not many people will even know who I am, and I'm ready for this new page, I never give up and always work hard until the last point. tonight the rain feels like it won't stop until morning, and my mind keeps spinning following the rhythm of the falling water and the gusts of wind that dance to fill my room that comes in through the gap in my window. my mind is never as simple as it seems, but I always try hard for everything and I always handle it. but I've decided this time I'm going to handle it in a new place, a new atmosphere, and this foreign place.
Be nice. I can be your summer and autumn at the same times. its depends. - you'll understand if you watching 500 days of summer-

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