I will fight bravely like a dude, because I am DUDE!

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Life now very chaotic, even in my own country everything is chaos, my escape now is to easy unlike before, when night comes I feel anxiety even in my sleep, and tonight I just wake up in 2am because I feel short of breath then without thinking I immediately rush to the beach to feel the peace of the sound of the waves at night, lately I have been very afraid of being alone at night because of the dream I had a week ago, I know it is my spiritual guidance but I still denial that guidance, I cry and screams silently because afraid someone would hears it but only the waves accompany me tonight. 


Life sucks, but i know nothing ever easy in this life, life’s tough but i am tougher! so I fight hard like a man, and I think I am a man in the body and soul of a woman. 


I'm just an ordinary woman with all the obstacles that I always face in my life and 2024 ago, my family and I managed to overcome the obstacles that came incessantly, then I promised that after this pain over I will go and fight again with a new version of me, the past problems are over so now I'll focus on myself, now I just focus on my life first and I'll face new obstacles and happiness this year, so here I am in this strange place alone. but my actions that always feel arrogant and much sure I can face everything, even I can handle everything with good way but ya I’m sure first things first I cry first xx. I always look at myself and complain a lot, pity her in front of the mirror, but I really hate when I pity myself. because it feels like this damn life never stops giving me problems that even one of them isn't a problem that I made at all but I have to take part and solve them one by one even when a man should face it but I always forced to learn and go down to face it alone, it's really great and sad at the same time but I thought feeling sorry for myself was my way of putting myself down, but now it's not anymore and I'm just proud of myself very proud! I will fight like a man who never gives up on his life, like my mother, I will fight harder like her, like a dude who does it bravely, yes because I am a dudE! (:
Be nice. I can be your summer and autumn at the same times. its depends. - you'll understand if you watching 500 days of summer-

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