Little story in our lovely day. 14 feb'! 💝

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The wind blows, the wind blows... 

The sun smiles brightly, the sun is so beautiful with its orange color, today the afternoon sky is so beautiful and cool while accompanying the departure of my best friend today who will go on a long journey but she will only be gone temporarily and back soon. but ↓






Today is February 14th, its Valentine's Day! But I'm so blue and just walking on the beach, I feel blue, it doesn't mean I'm not enjoying today, but I just feel tired. It's been three days i was feel blue and maybe it's just my hormones that aren’t working well, ya of course feelings like this always come at the wrong time. Know what?! sometimes there is a time of bored when i working and want to rest and end it all, but remembering everything i have gone through isn’t easy then I’ve never been that easy to decide something carelessly and let go easily. I think a lot but honestly this is my most tired time rn. 


my thoughts drift following the direction of the wind while watching the sun slowly set and its time for the sun to rest and sleep before it will work again and wake up at the appointed time. the universe is like humans, right? it has its own jobs and parts to continue life in this universe. right now and every day there are so many beautiful thoughts, and sometimes I laugh because I remember something very funny that is happening, sometimes I am even annoyed because I have done that and I regret it then what I get is I will remember it and laugh for the rest of my life. but I don't know that is the unique side of humans who can never be guessed what is in their heads. while here I kept looking for some quiet beaches and I found a comfortable and peaceful beach for me to rest and neutralize my energy that was drained because of work, occasionally I started coming here to complain about a tiring day at the beach, the sound of the waves and the breeze helped calm my mind as if he knew and wanted to be friends with me... 


Struggling alone in a place far from family is also tiring, although not always tiring but I enjoy this process. the people closest to me said I would be able to get through everything by myself and I have proven this all, I was born as a child of hope and the last child in my family, I get a lot of love from my entire family especially all my siblings and my mother, although growing up without a father figure in it made me choose an extreme path and become independent even before my time to be independent. but I am grateful because of that I grew into a strong figure even without a father by my side. sometimes I miss his figure, but I only feel a little moment of love from him, and God loves him more... 


My thoughts today are so complicated, coming to this place is calming and also brings sadness to my soul because remembering the little things that happened in my life is so heavy and unforgiving. but I am always grateful for the blessings that God has given, I always reduce my complaints and will focus on the life that I am living well. 


I promise this things will be my alarm in the future be my proof when I succeed of getting through times like this. this story will remind me of my struggles in the past and I will thank to myself and say you are great, I am proud of you and you deserve it, you deserve good results. 🍁

Be nice. I can be your summer and autumn at the same times. its depends. - you'll understand if you watching 500 days of summer-

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