BEHIND HER PERSONALITY

 Her personality is very quiet, but around her, she is a cheerful person, often when I spend time with her it makes me very happy, seeing her big laugh. Her enthusiasm is so great that she looks like a truly happy human being without feeling sad, how could behind a figure like that she actually harbors so many wounds, she is still young but the many lessons from the pain around her make her learn many things. She is often forced to mature before her time. because She saw so many things she shouldn't have seen at such a young age. I hope she stays mentally alert, I hope she grows well from the bad things she went through, I hope she goes through everything with a sincere heart and becomes a very strong and great person.

Pain has been a brutal teacher for me.

Just because you get hurt doesn't mean that afterwards, after experiencing deep hurt and pain, it doesn't mean you have to be a weak, naive, or vulnerable woman, but you should be so strong to still believe this hard in yourself that the world needs people. people who always foster happiness and care about the people around them. Pain has been a brutal teacher for me. 'Make you mine' has taught me not to be careless in placing love on the wrong person again. But don't worry, every person I meet, all of these things have taught me in sequence to rise in a different way every season and I have to forgive myself for all my brokenness, from the brokenness of my previous brokenness. Thank you because it makes me strong until now and still gives meaning at any time.

If He Was Meant For Me,

 

This feeling suddenly came again, I felt there was something disturbing my mind and my heart, but attracted the attention of the cells in my heart, this fluttering feeling came again, it felt like butterflies filled my heart and mind and I suddenly laughed to myself when I got a message from you , I don't know when this will came and started. I started waiting anxiously whether you would reply to my message or not, I waited for you until I fell asleep and immediately opened the message in the morning whether you had woken up and replied to my message or not. 

I'm starting to feel like I can't control my feelings, honestly I'm really scared because I don't want to fall into the same hole as before, but he made me look at my phone several times and wait for with a pounding feeling, what is this feeling' I shouted in my heart, finally -Lately we've been talking and looking for each other so intensely. Even though I know this might be a wrong feeling because we are in different worlds, but when I feel comfortable, can I stop this feeling before it starts? I don't know, I tried my best, if he was meant for me, I'm sure our journey to get to know each other will go well. Let's wait and see.

Mouth Is Evil

The human mouth is evil, sharp as a razor if it isn't maintained properly. That why we must guard our words well so not to hurt other people's feelings. many times without us realizing it, although not often, but sometimes we speak carelessly to the point of hurting other people's hearts, make unnecessary comments, give unnecessary input even though they weren't asked for, don't ever do that, I'm sure we all want to be treated kindly, So it starts with yourself. You have to start respecting other people if you want to be treated well. because I believe that in essence God acts justly and kindly, and the sowing and reaping system is real, so start from small things to respect the people around you

Write About Happiness...

 

 

I really want to write about happiness, joy, beautiful stories that are the same as other people who are happy, but in reality I still can't make myself happy, the cold night cuts and stabs my heart, it feels like happiness will never come to me. for a long time, the question was Is he the anti with me (Happiness) I found it very difficult to feel happy even in happy moments, my smile was fake, my friendliness was only my limit, I tried to look good even though in reality I was never ok. My gloom started when you dropped me from that cliff, yes until now I have never returned to normal, because it all started because of you. but there's no need to worry, I can still handle it well and have forgotten everything, it's just that the pieces still remain in my heart.

Rainbow After Rain

Only some people feel the rain when it fall, others people only feel wet. My part is that I am the taster of various kinds of feelings in this universe, I really enjoy various kinds of feelings whether its happiness, sadness, feeling hurt and so on, But rain is different, I don't know what makes it different from other feelings, it makes me pensive in its roar, Sometimes rain makes me happy, but a few minutes later it can make me cry because a bad memory flashes by. It feels like when it rains it's very quiet, sad and melancholy. I enjoy sadness and pleasure when it rains, the rain makes things real, when its rain makes others noisy, its softness disturbs me, in fact I think its softness disturbs me, it makes me calm and I can think well, the rain also makes me rest from a very busy world. Rain stops people who are working, even workaholics can stop doing their work when it rains and enjoy the rains because for me the rain is very calming, very cool even though behind the moans of tears the sky falls to wet us. we empathize with the sky and come down to celebrate sadness, but after that we are always presented with beautiful things and very beautiful colors after the rain, a savior rainbow for souls who are still lost in sadness after the rain falls, we are very grateful even for the sky and the rain as well as the universe also work together to heal the various feelings that humans experience from time to time. always accompany and guide us to find a way out, I am grateful for that, I can be good friends with the universe and all the things in it.

Covered My Reflection

 

This time my wounds covered my shadow because I was in such deep darkness that I didn't see my reflection. Very depth makes it difficult for anyone to reach it, in other words even angels can’t find me because of the depth of darkness that I live in. but I am grateful that the darkness gave me many new things that I never knew before. , the things I went through in the dark gave me so much meaning. Is darkness eternal and will accompany me in my only once life ? Even though what I know is darkness's best friend is light, but I never saw a single bit of light, only loneliness and emptiness accompanied me, and that made me very sick, very sick until the end I'm used to this feeling of pain.

The Curse Of Past

Such Beautiful Nature On This Earth

 

Green leaves accompanied by the wind blowing through the walls of my room, the beautiful view of mountains covered in blue and white clouds like mountains wearing such beautiful dresses, the beauty I get every day because I live on the outskirts of the mountains. How lucky I am to be born amidst the beauty of the universe that I live every day.

 

God, thank you for creating such beautiful nature on this earth, because of you I can always breathe fresh air in the morning and be grateful for all your creations, this is a great happiness that I am grateful for that I have lived for 29 years in this world. Thank you for everything Lord. 🦋

Rise Hold Back Your Wounds

I know how much you hold back your wounds. You have been hurt and you feel like the wound will never heal from your heart. I'm sure there will always be light after darkness, even though you don't know when it will come, but at least you have tried your best to heal the wound. but now is the time for you to rise from the downturn that has long existed in your comfort zone, which has long been embedded in the space of your heart. This is the time for you to rediscover your strength, get what should be your happiness, then rise from adversity, live again as before, become successful until the people who hurt you no longer dare to look at your reflection. be enthusiastic about fighting, enjoy your process towards your rise.

Now Is Now

Sometimes everything doesn't make sense in your mind, when things happen that have a negative impact on your life, you will question why this happened to someone like you, then you feel unfair. You want to change the plot of the story but you can't control where your destiny takes you. You can't repeat your story, you can't control the thoughts of the humans around you. instead of regretting everything, instead of harboring anger because you can't change anything, why don't you appreciate what you have now, why don't you be grateful for the results of your hard work, laugh more, make yourself and your family happier, if not now then when else ? enjoy every precious moment you have now. because now is the time for you to be strong by your family's side, it's time for you to receive the results of your hard work, it's time for you to create your happiness. yes this is the right time for you. there is no later, there is no tomorrow, but now is now. 

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