FOCUS💭

 

Looks…Its like the night was bored with my arrival in his mind

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Hey night, please excuse me one more time,

I don't know where else to come, if I come during the day, that's when I and other humans are busy, if I come at night. Ya this is the right time, bcs I can spend more time and calm my mind at night.  
But tonight is different;
Different bcs I come with pain, I come with regret,    I come with a small wound in my heart…
Hhh I have to do something to make my world return to normal! 
unfortunately I feel pain again, The feeling that I avoid the most, That's why I don't want to open my heart to anyone, because in the end I am to blame for my actions, I am to blame for being insensitive and cowardly.  
I don't know what to do anymore, 

He; told me to focus, so I started learn to focus on him, but when I focus on him, he starts to become unfocused on me•

Like whattttt💬💬
 Then will he blame me? 

Bcs I insensitive, bad at texting and not focus on him ? I try my best, but…

Then what should I do with the current situation ?
Now The contents of our messages are hanging from my messages which he doesn't reply to, then I'll find out in the morning.  

And ya…

About the final decisions,

All decisions are in his hands, should I focus and survive or give up and retreat to close again my slightly open space.