Happy ?

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 Sometimes I ask myself when I'm in the mirror.

  Do I deserve to be happy, do I deserve to be successful?

  As long as I live 28 years

  Why do I think I don’t deserve everything, when I don't have anything I want.

  Is there something wrong with the way I live, the way I grow.

  I really blamed myself.

  Sometimes I don't know what to do

  I want to give up

  But considering I haven't achieved what I want, I back again so I don't give up.

  I kno I deserve to be happy, I deserve what I want,

  God, please strengthen my heart so that I can obey what you command.

  And I want to be happy, make myself and my mother happy.

Just it

🍁

Be nice. I can be your summer and autumn at the same times. its depends. - you'll understand if you watching 500 days of summer-

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