🍁 Last Autumn, Little Butterfly 🦋

  Meeting my first love at school, having my first kiss at his house, his lips are so sweet the taste of candy and mixed with the taste of cigarettes, makes me very addicted.    "C" introduced me to the goodness of first love but because I felt wasn't good enough for him, I finally chose to leave (because of my selfishness as a child who wants to be loved but doesn't know the meaning of love).  Finally in season 2 of entering high school I met a man who was very gentle and his treatment of me, he taught me the meaning of good communication with a partner, the meaning of mutual respect, But again I felt that I was not enough so this time I was very hurt and make him cried on my birthday very brutally, But Thank you "A" for introducing me to loyalty till the end.  Not long ago I continued with the man who accompanied me on my birthday namely Baby  "E" I met him at a music show I previously attended with my previous lover, he introduced me to the ou...

  5 years have passed, so many sweets and bitters of life I have gone through.  Long story short where 2 man came into my life..At that time I only approached him bcs my heart was hurting... But who would have thought I would love them so much. So I remember when I was traveling for vacation to Bali with my friends + my lover. Then my other lover followed me too. But beside I feel guilty, I also feel like a bad jerk in the world, how can I act as an affair, but I betrayed him so much. And At that time, Idk what to do, bcs my two lovers want some vacation together with me in same time. Then I have no choice, And I make it real with danger dealing. But everything went smoothly bcs of all my friends, thx boop❤️ I don't know why I really like challenges and the excitement makes me satisfied.  Where I came to both of them at the same time made my heart like a roller coaster!  After 5day my friend and my byfriend came home bcs they were done on vacation, but I stayed conti...

  Does love hurt so much ?  did you have to sacrifice so far?   why do most people still survive even though they have been hurt more than 3 times and can still survive?   What to hold on when you are not appreciated, does loving someone have to be that painful?  don't have happiness, happiness is taken from you and you don't deserve it. You know what!! You are strong woman, tough woman, independent woman whatever you can do, without man you being the strongest.  Then why do you still need a man who has no gratitude for having you?   why are you still standing beside him when you are no longer appreciated and no longer treated well? Why ?