Marriage Lyfe🤭

Hi how are you guys, it's feels been a long time not writing here.

Yes, maybe because I'm busy with my jobs.

 Let's get started…

 I am now 28 years old and according to my family's customs, if you are not married now, it is too late. 😄

 But don't worry I'm not too worried bcs I want to really enjoy my time right now.

 There were so many people around me who didn't enjoy their time at that time, so they couldn't cope with their time in marriage.

 I see a lot of household experiences of people around me that have so many problems, even though I know it's a risk in marriage lyfe.

 Sometimes I ask if I believe in marriage, am I ready?  Do I have to do it?  So many questions in my head that it felt like it was going to explode.

 Sometimes I think (If I get married, it means I'm ready to let go of my identity, and life live as someone else)

 Am I wrong to have such thoughts, that's what scares me, maybe not prepared.

 That's why I really enjoy my current life, making my mother and myself happy in any way.

 Experiences, lessons, views of the relationship around have taught me a lot of new things, so don't worry I don't want to get married. I will~

 But, It's just all about time nd fate that hasn't come to me.

The anger issue

 

2018 I started messing with myself, means (mentally).

 Like I had to run away from the life I was in at the time, to see into that 2020-2021 was far more explosive. 

 yes to me, it keeps happening bcs of self-improvement which in my opinion has not been completed, and is still in progress. 

 At that time I wanted to know, why am I like this, why I can be like this, ups and downs of feelings of uncertainty, emotions of stability.  

sometimes I can be angry sometimes I also sad at the same time, Everyone knows it's a bad feeling, the feeling of being pushed around like crazy things.

 why am I like this so i learned a lot from this, what makes anger issue?  The anger issue is like a manifestation of an unhealed or unhealed wound! 

 I always ask to myself.

 what is root of the heartache that makes my emotions up and down like this, which is always stuck in my heart.  

I finally found the answer and this is about my past trauma.