Wondering why ?

 I was just wondering why you always look at us like that.

“Don’t u know the struggle we are going through ?”

 “Why don't you appreciate our work at all?”

 “Should you think of us so bad ?”

 “Why are we always looked down upon by you?”

“Sometimes we are tired, can't we be disappointed ?”

“Can we feels so bad and tired with all 

problem he makes ?”

“Why you only thinking about your son, 

not about the sister ?”

We are angry, we complain bcs of what he has done to all of us especially to you mom!! 💔

 We always want to make you happy with our hard work, but it has to be a little delayed because we have to solve problems that we shouldn't be responsible for. 

so we don't completely make you happy, but wait for moment I will make things back to normal and all will be happy especially mom!

Did you know ? I always cry if see you cry in silent at night.

I hold you tight I hug you tight but you avoid me, you act like nothing happen. U know? It hurt me/us so much.

We all the sisters promise to make you always happy, and don’t want to see you cry again every night.

....

Sometime we wondering why ? Why mom why ?

We always do best things, do everything for make you happy.

But only brother in your head.

Why...

With all the efforts the sister can and want to help him get out of trouble, why are we the ones who are considered the culprits and accused us of always hating him.

 We always endure the pain because we love you, but why you sometimes treat us unfairly.  

Sorry if I talk like this, sorry I wrote all this, sorry if I feels like this. 

this does’nt reduce my love for you my dead love.

 I wish that you always love us and don't think strangely about us, bcs the fact we love each other and there is no hatred.

This only disappointment bcs he likes to make mistakes that are very bad so that we all and mom must be responsible and endure this all.

6/03 Autumn girl🍁

 Hi meet me again here

  This Sunday morning when I woke up suddenly I had tears in my eyes.
     For some reason, feelings like this happen often and always come suddenly until my head feels like exploding.
     Exactly a week from now, I'm getting older, and I'm 28 years old.
     Didn't think it would go so fast.
     In fact Turns out being an 
adult is hard.
     when I was little and I wanted to cry, I just cried nd hugging mom.
     But now I want to cry, Its so pembarrassed, I hold it in bcs I don't want people’s see me cry.
     I've been through so many wounds, but I'm trying to look fine even though I'm not.
     God has given me breath until now, nd I am very grateful, my desire to become a better person when I get 1 year old and forth.  
Sorry if sometimes I was very childish to be someone who is not grateful. But right now I am very grateful to God.  

Sense of self♓️

 - New chapters of life, new beginnings, new sense of
Self, personal revolution, expansion of personality,
expansion of who you are.
- Letting go of stress and anxiety, finding inner
calmness, finding inner peace, finding inner anchor
- Extra blessings on a personal level and in
relationships, magic happens, dreams come true,
personal empowerment and personal strength
- Living large, living life to its fullest, being in love,
falling in love, rising in love, feels more butterfly 🦋
- Huge changes in your social life, long-term
transformations within friendshipss & big changes within your social circles.
- Always do new things in life, make mom proud to have you, make your inner circle proud to have you.
 
Does Everything make you happy, do what makes you feel better.
Ps :
You not just wake up become the butterfly 🦋

Did you get what I mean ? Trust the process nd goodluck ♓️🍁

A cold heart ❄️

 I've never felt something so greatttttttt like this.

At first I was not sure,

 when I first met him I felt something else was stuck in my heart. I don’t know what, I don’t know why!”

 when my heart is confused by work that makes me very uncomfortable, but calmed by his smile that is so calm, and his words that are so soft.

 His charm makes me want to always be near him and always want to see him, he makes me really want to touch him.

And finally I always make excuses to meet him even if only for a moment.  I don't know why there is so much turmoil in this heart till I forget myself and really want to make him mine.

 My days passed so gloomy and uncomfortable but I finally enjoyed it bcs of him.

When In my office room feels so cold nd suddenly feels warm when he come here.

 I haven't felt butterflies 🦋in my heart in a long time.

 Your bright light makes me happy and fiery when you are around me.

 I know I only feel this is one-sided, bcs from the story I just heard, you just broke up with your gfrnd.

 I know very well what it feels like to have a broken heart, so I let you enjoy your pain as someone who has just had their heart broken.

 Your cold heart makes me even more curious about your heart and mind.  Well please give me a chance to treat the pain, I'm sure the wound will slowly heal if it continues to be treated properly nd I will treat until you are healed and smile warmly again.