🍁Last Autumn Little Butterfly 🦋

 We try to protect ourselves from pain, but one thing I’ve learned this year is that pain demands to be felt. It will show up in other ways if we don’t deal with it. So the biggest thing you can do when you’re faced with pain, or difficulty, or change, or conflict is to feel it. Please, don’t run from your feelings. Run towards them. Run within yourself. Meditate. Get in touch with your mind, your heart, your soul. Explore your wounds with your own feelings. Get in touch with the parts of yourself that are hidden from the world. Then slowly Heal yourself from within and try to open the door of your heart wide—embrace the pain and it will gradually fade over time. And you can go about your day without feeling sad anymore.

 

It turns out that the phase of losing interest in everything exists. This phase comes when I have felt all forms of life's wounds that come. such as love, spiritual life, successive failures and having to rise from something very tiring to start over. This phase comes when I am completely numb to everything. I don't know where to start, it feels very difficult. I need a slap to get my spirit back. I can only complain and cry when I'm going to sleep, but I always take the time to be grateful when I wake up. Oh my God, this is really tiring. I don't know what else to do. I really feel a lot of hatred for many people, especially men, I am not traumatized or in pain because of love but this time this feeling just comes. I really hate this situation. 

       Many times I saw you on the corner of the city in front of the place where you earn a living. Dressed in black and the typical hat you always wear. I don't know what was on my mind at that time, memories after memories appeared one by one in my mind rebuilding the illusion that made me happy. The illusion of deception that made me want to hug and meet you again. But it was only my illusion that wanted it. My logic asked me to not want to meet you in any possibility.