First and last kiss🥀

May I be honest, our first and last kiss was very beautiful.

why did God give the same feeling of fluttering when we first kissed although added tears when we kissed our last. 

those memories are very clearly embedded in my mind, maybe I always trying make memories feel beautiful even though the reality is very bitter. 

I don’t know for sure when it was never lost from my mind.

Happy ?

 Sometimes I ask myself when I'm in the mirror.

  Do I deserve to be happy, do I deserve to be successful?

  As long as I live 28 years

  Why do I think I don’t deserve everything, when I don't have anything I want.

  Is there something wrong with the way I live, the way I grow.

  I really blamed myself.

  Sometimes I don't know what to do

  I want to give up

  But considering I haven't achieved what I want, I back again so I don't give up.

  I kno I deserve to be happy, I deserve what I want,

  God, please strengthen my heart so that I can obey what you command.

  And I want to be happy, make myself and my mother happy.

Just it

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