🍁Last Autumn Little Butterfly 🦋

  A week after i tried to end my love, i feel more and more longing for you and wanting you.  I feel like i want to be in your arms.  I wait for your call in the middle of the night and we talk until the rooster crows in the morning and that is our warning to stop talking, Everyday for a week we do sleep calls. i know it will make me and you depend on our love feelings.  I always thought you loved me very deeply and so did i. but i know we have deep trauma and are afraid to start a relationship. I losing you again and this time i disappeared because i read the sign from you that you aren’t ready to live, you are still shackled by your youth, and your happy times with the world aren’t over.  I knew this from the start. my heart always wants to stay with you but my logic says otherwise. again my relationship is not going well, i love you very much. but a month has passed i really feel lonely, loneliness kills heart. but i am used to the feeling that has died, so e...

 

   Growing up made me realize that being simple is calming, not following the world is fun, rejecting other people's wishes is okay, staying away from choosing to be alone and saving yourself from the wrong person is good for your mental health.  Everything that isn't destined for me and doesn't go according to my wishes is the best lesson in life. actually, failing a few times in life is okay. that's the name of life. right? as time goes by, all things change my perspective on life to be so simple and accepting all the realities that exist, that's maturity .  Not always being critical in looking at life and living it calmly is really enlightening. even though I only express it through words is the easiest thing to say and theory is not always as easy as reality, but believe me by simplifying everything and living life easily will help you lighten the burden you carry.  Everything will be fine and will be easy depending on how we respond to what is in front of o...